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Hillary Clinton Would Not Serve Second Term In Obama Cabinet

Secretary of State Hillary Clinton tells CNN’s Wolf Blitzer in an interview set to air on Wednesday’s edition of “The Situation Room” that she would not serve a second term in President Barack Obama’s cabinet. Executive Producer of CNN’s “John King USA,” Michelle Jaconi, relayed the news in a tweet on Wednesday afternoon. Here’s an excerpt of the interview released by the network: Q- If the president is reelected, do you want to serve a second term as secretary of state? No Q- Would you like to serve as secretary of defense? No In the exchange that follows, Clinton also signals she has no interest in serving as president or vice president of the United States. The indication should come as no surprise. Last year, she suggested her role in the Obama administration would be her “last public position.” Clinton reiterates the same outlook to Blitzer in the interview airing tonight. “I have no intention or any idea even of running again,” she says. “I’m going to do the best I can at this job for the next two years.” As for what might lie ahead for Clinton in her post-political life, she predicted last year that she’d likely “go back to advocacy work, particularly on behalf of women” after serving in the Obama administration. She added that she would conduct that work on a global scale, explaining, “If you look at what is still happening to women in many parts of the world it is tragic and terrible.”

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Japan Disaster Threatens Economic Recovery, Affects Economies Globally

The disaster in Japan threatens to significantly impede the nation’s economic recovery, perhaps spreading to other nations, say economists. The worst devastation from the earthquake and tsunami is concentrated in the northeast of Japan, but the economic effects of the earthquake and tsunami could expand further. On Tuesday, Japan’s stock market took its worst dive since the fall of 2008. Global companies, such as Toyota, have halted significant portions of their output. Already, collapsed nuclear plants are weakening Japan’s energy supply, and power outages have hit manufacturers. With infrastructure and factories destroyed, major automotive and technology companies have frozen exports. As the world’s economies still struggle to emerge from the recession, sectors that have been major drivers of global growth now face massive stalls. The full impact of the disaster, and the extent to which it could harm economies globally, cannot yet be assessed, experts say. In economic terms, the tragedy might not have much effect on other countries, as companies compensate for devastated facilities, say economists. But even once the crisis subsides and Japan begins to rebuild, that country’s economy could face major challenges. “This is much, much more than a quarter’s issue,” said Robert Feldman, chief economist for Morgan Stanley in Japan, who spoke by phone from Tokyo. “It’s a huge impact. We just don’t have any idea of exactly how much the damage is.” Amid the massive devastation, experts see two emerging threats to the Japanese economy: the domestic power supply could be compromised, and manufacturing companies could be unable to export products. Japan’s nuclear reactors provide about a third of the country’s power, and a fraction of those reactors have been incapacitated. On Monday, Tokyo Electric Power Company began to impose scheduled blackouts in an attempt to avoid unpredictable outages on a larger scale, according to a release from the company. A third reactor exploded Tuesday and a fourth caught fire. “What really matters is how this thing plays out in terms of the electrical system. If they can manage that problem, then you’re just talking about a horrible but nevertheless highly localized problem,” said Marcus Noland, deputy director of the Peterson Institute for International Economics in Washington. “If this thing manages to propagate itself through the electrical system to the rest of the country, then there’s a much greater degree of uncertainty.” Owing in part to this energy crisis, Japan’s economic recovery will likely be delayed, according to a Sunday report from Nomura Securities in Tokyo. As panic gripped Japanese financial markets, the Nikkei stock index closed down nearly 11 percent Tuesday, its biggest plunge since October 2008. The Japanese economy won’t recover from this disaster until the final quarter of 2011, Nomura predicts. Wells Fargo projects that the growth in Japan’s economic output, at an annualized rate, will be 0.3 percent for the second quarter of this year, according to Scott Anderson, a senior economist for the bank. That represents a full percentage point reduction from Wells Fargo’s previous growth forecast over the same period. Experts disagreed on how long the economic setback would last, but acknowledged that the challenges to the Japanese economy would be great. “There’s chaos,” said Arthur Alexander, an economist at Georgetown who specializes in Japan. “That will affect things in the short run.” Key elements of Japan’s manufacturing have frozen. Toyota, Honda and Nissan automobile plants in northern Japan have been closed. Nissan has said that nearly 2,300 Nissan and Infiniti vehicles awaiting shipment were destroyed by the tsunami that followed the 9.0-magnitude earthquake, according to a report from IHS Automotive. Toyota has halted 45 percent of its global production, and plans to keep all its Japanese plants shuttered through Wednesday, according to the report. Nissan has reported damage to six of its Japanese facilities. Honda plans to keep several of its plants closed through March 20. With shipping ports and roads destroyed, some companies are simply unable to export products. The automotive industry, which economists have hailed as a source of global economic growth, now faces a strain. “Even if they could make the cars, they couldn’t send them anywhere,” Feldman said from Tokyo. “In a certain sense, Japan is very tough — construction standards really saved a lot of people — but we do have this distribution issue.” Devastation has also seized the technology sector. About 40 percent of the world’s flash memory chips, used in devices ranging from cameras to computers, are made in Japan. A fifth of the world’s semiconductors are made there. Already, Sony has shut down 10 factories and two research centers, according to Bloomberg News. Toshiba has shut down five of its plants. Texas Instruments has closed two plants and won’t return to full production until July, according to Reuters. The affected companies produce key components for computers, televisions, camcorders, DVD players and iPads. Now, the high-tech industry, which experts have seen as a key source of economic growth, contends with the prospect of a shortage. “There will be individual companies in the U.S. that are not going to be able to get their supplies for anywhere from weeks to months,” Alexander, the Georgetown economist, said. “There certainly will be suppliers who are either out of business or have lost their capabilities for the moment.” But even if these developments wound Japan’s economy in the short term, the global consequences aren’t likely to cause lasting economic damage, experts say. The Japanese economy, which is the world’s third largest, has redundancy built in. When factories or power plants close, companies can turn to other facilities for supplies. Experts predicted that Japan’s power grid, at least, would be restored within the next few weeks. Before the earthquake, suppliers in Japan were using resources at a level that was 15 percent lower than before the financial crisis of 2008, according to a report from the research division of Macquarie Capital Securities. That means there is some ability to transfer production to other facilities. The principally-affected region in the northeast of Japan accounts for about 4 percent of gross domestic product — roughly equivalent to the output from the city of Kobe, which was hit by an earthquake in 1995. Experts say that the Kobe earthquake, though it temporarily devastated the local area, did not significantly harm larger economic trends. “If you looked at the macro data, you wouldn’t even know there was such a destructive earthquake in Kobe 16 years ago,” said Richard Jerram, head of Asian economics at Macquarie Research, who spoke by phone from Singapore. “It recovered very, very quickly.” In terms of the magnitude of the earthquake, the current devastation is far worse than in 1995. But in economic terms, it won’t significantly harm even the Japanese economy over the long term, experts say. The Japanese government has pledged various stimulus measures, and while the rebuilding process will be difficult, it’s unlikely to cause lasting economic damage. “It’s a huge blow to the Japanese economy,” said Mark Zandi, chief economist at Moody’s Analytics. “But it should have a very temporary, modest impact on ours.”

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My father aka Rihanna – What’s my name! Rihanna’s Father Speaks to PEOPLE Rihanna’s father confirms she has split from Chris Brown Rihanna Calls Her Dad A Backstabber ~ HipHopJunkiez.com “These … In an interview with PEOPLE, Rihanna’s father , Ronald Fenty, said that when he first heard that his daughter had been attacked by Chris Brown, “I didn’t believe it. “I know my daughter,” said Fenty, 55. As for Brown, he said, … Smoater says: Rihanna Father : Simon Cowell picks L.A. Reid to be X Factor judge? – Monsters and CriticsMusic mogul Simon… http://tinyurl.com/4mhtt7x

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Morehead State Upsets Louisville: Demonte Harper 3-Pointer Gives Eagles The Win Morehead State vs. Louisville upset 3-14-11 Eagles Upset Louisville in NCAA Tournament Bracket-buster! Morehead State beats No. 4 Louisville – College … Demonte Harper made a 3-pointer from the top of the circle with 4.2 seconds left Thursday to lead 13th-seeded Morehead State to the first upset of the NCAA tournament, a 62-61 victory over No. 4 Louisville in the Southwest regional. Morehead State Upsets Louisville: Demonte Harper 3-Pointer Gives … March Madness is already off to an incredible start, and the tournament even has it’s first real upset. The Morehead State Eagles took down the 4-seeded Louisville Cardinals with an incredible 3-pointer just seconds before the buzzer. VIDEO: Morehead State's Demonte Harper, Kenneth Faried Seal Upset … Apparently, though, the Morehead State Eagles weren’t interested in serving as the Frank Grimes to the Cardinals’ Homer Simpson. Watch as Demonte Harper makes the Eagles the 23rd-ever 13-seed to upset a 4-seed. … Morehead State Shocks No. 4 Louisville In NCAA Tournament's First … NCAA Tournament 2011 preview of the bracket’s Louisville vs. Morehead State game. Morehead State Upsets No. 4 Louisville « CBS Dallas / Fort Worth With 4.2 seconds left, 13th-seeded Morehead State won the first upset of the NCAA tournament, a 62-61 victory over No. 4 Louisville. newsupdateson says: Morehead State stuns Louisville in final seconds: Demonte Harper made a 3-pointer from the … http://short.ie/xkrjrs #newsupdatesonline

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Demi Lovato New Tattoo

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An Easy Trick for Better Sleep

Most of us grew up listening to our parents tell us to straighten our room and make the bed. I’m sure I am not the only one who wondered why it was so important to make the bed, especially because it was just going to be unmade again that night! To be honest, some of us may still feel that way. It turns out that, like many things, mom and dad may have been right about this one. A recent article suggests that a clean room could lead to a better night’s sleep. Your bedroom is more than just the room that happens to house your bed — it is your personal environment for sleeping. A proper sleep environment is essential for quality sleep. We’re talking about more than sweeping the room to keep allergies at bay (though a clean room is incredibly helpful if you suffer from seasonal or dust-related allergies). Believe it or not, the perfect sleep environment is all-inclusive. The study found that participants slept better when… they made their beds every day, bed sheets were clean and changed once a week, the bedrooms were dark and cool, they slept on comfortable mattresses and pillows. The participants even reported that sheets with a clean, fresh scent helped them to sleep more comfortably. I cannot emphasize this point enough: A clean, cool, dark and comfortable atmosphere is needed to create an ideal sleep environment. Particularly comfort! The ideal sleep environment soothes all of your body’s senses, easing you into sleep. We’ve talked before about the positive impact that a cool bedroom temperature has on sleep. You can darken your bedroom by using low wattage bulbs (45 watts or less) near your bed and making sure all the lights are off for bedtime. A quiet room can be achieved by shutting off all electronics: TV, computers and cell phones. Try using a fan or a noise machine if outside noises are an issue. Of course, none of this matters if you cannot get comfortable! Many people neglect the importance of comfort. Your mattress and pillow are the building blocks of your sleep environment. Making sure they are right for you and still supportive is the first and most important step towards a better sleep experience. How do you know if you are sleeping on a “dead” pillow? Follow these simple steps: Begin by laying your pillow across your arm and look at how it’s folded. Does it have a slight fold, but still sticks out at the ends? If so, then the structural integrity of your pillow is fine. Or does your pillow fold — or flop — over your arm, like an old saddle bag? Then you have a dead pillow, and it needs to be replaced. Still not convinced? Try this: Lay your pillow on top of your bed and fold it in half. Now place a shoe on top and let go. If the shoe goes flying, then your pillow is fine; if it is stays put, then you need a new pillow. I suggest developing a consistent schedule that includes routine bedtime habits to calm you down and prepare you for sleep. Avoid alcohol and caffeine within three hours of bedtime. Know how much sleep you need to wake up feeling rested and go to bed in time make it happen. Adding a few simple tasks to your routine — taking a little time at the end of the day to straighten up your bedroom, making your bed when you first wake up and washing the bed linens once a week — can help to create a relaxing ambience for your sleep environment. Parents, don’t forget to have the kids make their beds and clean their rooms too; tell them it’s good for their health! Sweet dreams, Michael J. Breus, Ph.D. The Sleep Doctor™ *** Everything you do, you do better with a good night’s sleep.™ Please visit www.thesleepdoctor.com. Facebook: www.facebook.com/thesleepdoctor

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Five Things Everyone Should Know About The Bible, Believe It or Not

The Bible is a peculiar book, and it’s hard to get straight information about it. If you’re one of those people with a nagging feeling that you should know more about the Bible than you do — or even if you can recite chapter and verse (but don’t know that those chapters and verses come from a 13th century archbishop of Canterbury and a 16th century Parisian, respectively) — then these five basic things will catapult you to a new level of biblical literacy. Though I might be handing you clunky corrective eyewear instead of sexy kitten glasses, I promise that they will change the way you look at the Good Book, clarifying and focusing your understanding. 1. Every Bible is actually a collection of books. The word itself means something like “little library.” Many of the Bible’s books developed over a long period of time and include the input of a lot of people (ancient Israelites, Babylonian Jews and Greek pastors, to name a few), reflecting particular places (urban Jerusalem, the northern Galilee, rural Judah and ancient Persia, for example) and times (spanning as much as 1,000 years for the Old Testament and a couple of centuries for the New Testament). Plus, the collection as a whole developed over centuries. This helps to explain the tremendous variety of theological perspectives, literary style, and sometimes perplexing preoccupations (which animal parts go to which parties in which categories of sacrifices, e.g.), as well as why some texts disagree with others. 2. Not everyone who believes in it has the same Bible. There are actually different bibles, though they all started with Jews (but before Judaism, per se). The Christian bible includes and depends upon the Jewish bible — the Protestant Christian Old Testament is composed of the same books as the Jewish Hebrew Bible, arranged in a different order; and non-Protestant Christians include a few more books and parts of books (which also originated in Jewish circles) in their Old Testaments. The books of the Christian New Testament reflect the process of Jesus’ followers gradually distinguishing themselves from his religion, Judaism. 3. The Bible came after the literature it comprises. In other words, the material that became biblical wasn’t written in order to be part of a Bible. This helps to explain the existence of a book of erotic love poetry (Song of Songs), one that doesn’t mention God (Esther), another of intimate personal correspondence (Paul’s letter to Philemon) and maybe why none of it was written by Jesus. The biblical texts are not disinterested reporting of objective facts but come from people of faith informed by particular beliefs. 4. If you’re reading the Bible in English, you’re reading a translation. With the exception of a small minority of Aramaic texts, the books of the Old Testament or Hebrew Bible were all written in Hebrew. The books of the New Testament were written in Greek. Every translation is by nature interpretation. If you’ve ever studied a foreign language, you know that it’s impossible to convert exactly and for all time the literature or speech of any given language into another. A translator has to make choices. There are often several ways to render the original text, and changes in English affect the meaning we read as well. 5. Finally, this information about the Bible is compatible with belief in it. A person can simultaneously accept these truths about the Bible and the Bible as the Word of God. Doing so may require recalibrating assumptions, though, to allow for the possibility that God patiently works through people and time, enjoys a good debate and prefers inviting conversation over issuing absolutes. (Even the Ten Commandments, which would seem to be as absolute as anything, show up in two places in the Bible — and with some differences.) The Bible’s endurance is astonishing. It continues to instruct and to inspire (in all sorts of interpretations and ways) the millions of people for whom it is their sacred and authoritative text. And it continues to ignite the imagination and enrich the speech, literature and art of people outside of the biblical faiths, too. Knowing the few bits of information provided here, as plain and pedantic as they may seem, makes it possible to make sense of the Bible — its uses and abuses — for yourself. It’s like having the kind of friend who you know will keep you straight, surprise and delight you and encourage you to keep becoming exactly you. This information is more than a starting point. It’s also a companion along the way, enabling new insights, providing correctives, and allowing space for the dynamism of your own ideas and learning. Kristin Swenson is the author of Bible Babel: Making Sense of the Most Talked About Book of All Time (Harper, 2010; Harper Perennial, 2011) now available in paperback! She is an Associate Professor of Religious Studies at Virginia Commonwealth University.

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Prince attends NZ quake memorial

Prince tells crowd of tens of thousands to ‘be strong’ at memorial service for victims of last month’s earthquake in New Zealand Prince William has urged the people of Christchurch to “be strong” as he addressed a crowd of tens of thousands at a memorial service for victims of last month’s earthquake in New Zealand. William said he was conveying his own message, as well as one from his grandmother, and told the crowd on Friday they were an “inspiration to all people”. “My grandmother once said that grief is the price we pay for love. Here, today, we love, and we grieve. “We honour the lives and memories of all those who did not survive the earthquake – New Zealanders, and those from many countries around the world who came to this city as visitors, or to make it their home. “Our thoughts and our prayers are with the families, wherever they may be.” The prince told the crowd it was hard for them to “grasp the degree of admiration – indeed, awe”, with which they were regarded by the rest of the world. He also told the people they could appreciate more than anyone else the “full horror” of what was unfolding in Japan. “Courage and understated determination have always been the hallmark of New Zealanders, of Cantabrians,” he said. “These things the world has long known. But to see them so starkly demonstrated over these terrible, painful months has been humbling. “Put simply, you are an inspiration to all people. I count myself enormously privileged to be here to tell you that. In the last two days, I have heard tales of great tragedy – but also of extraordinary bravery and selfless courage. “Throughout, one phrase unites them all. With the Queen’s heartfelt good wishes, and those of the Prince of Wales and other members of my family, I say it to you now: Kia kaha – be strong.” The prince’s address was greeted with applause from the crowd, some of whom were sporting T-shirts reading Kia kaha . William, who donned a Korowai – a traditional Maori feathered cloak – had earlier been welcomed by Henare Rakiihia Tau, from the Ngai Tuahuriri sub-tribe, who told William to “nibble at the apple and be fruitful”. The mayor of Christchurch, Bob Parker, spoke of the difficulty for people to understand why the quake had hit the city. But in a rousing speech, he said: “It seems to me that those lives that have been lost have to be given real meaning in this city as it goes forward. We have to reach into our hearts and our spirits and our self belief and build a safer city so this thing can never happen again. “We will rise, we will rebuild the city based on strength and optimism. We will have a city that again will be the most beautiful place on earth, that you and I could hope to live in.” New Zealand’s prime minister, John Key, said those who lost their lives in the quake, which left more than 160 people dead, from other countries would be remembered by New Zealanders as they remembered their own. He said: “We are conscious that we are united in our loss with families from more than 20 countries whose fate it was to have a loved one far, far from home when the earthquake struck. “We will remember your loved ones as we remember our own.” Of all those who died in the quake, he said, “they are the faces of a Christchurch that will never be as it was again”. “The earthquake of February 22, 2011, has altered forever the lives of those who live here, no words or deeds can change that. “So today we remember Christchurch as it was and we treasure the memory.” Key also paid tribute to Japan’s “desperate plight”, adding: “For the people of Christchurch who have lived through two large earthquakes and many thousands of aftershocks these images of Japan bring flooding back the raw emotion and pain that accompanies such an event.” Prince William is due in Australia on Saturday, where he will visit regions affected by the floods, including locations in Queensland followed by a visit to north-west Victoria. Prince William New Zealand Monarchy Natural disasters and extreme weather guardian.co.uk

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Do As I Say, Not As I Do

As a bestselling psychotherapist author and marriage counselor, I spent a lot of time in the 90s on television talking about love and romance, and promoting my five books on the subject, including Guerrilla Dating Tactics and How to Stay Lovers for Life. I told the world that marriage can work if the two people want it to work. I was unfailingly optimistic. I was funny. I could talk in sound bites. I was quoted in every magazine you can name, including multiple issues of Cosmo and Men’s Health. I made the front page of The Wall Street Journal. But it was an article about flirting in The National Enquirer which quoted me that caught the eye of the producers for Oprah. I appeared on Oprah eight times. On all of my visits, I had pat phrases for the audience such as, “The problem is the place you start working, not the place you stop working.” And “When you have the energy to want to throw each other out the window, you can, instead, use that same energy to make love work.” Oprah told me that she loved my red hair and my outfit and my outlook. Once, she even sang the name of my book. My fifteen minutes felt as if it would never end. What Oprah, the audience, or anyone in my life didn’t know then was that I had a secret. While launching a career as a “relationship expert,” I was going home every night to a failed marriage of my own. My husband and I didn’t sleep in the same bed. We only had sex three times in fifteen years. We rarely shared a meal. Nonetheless, we were deeply attached to each other, would take a bullet for each other, and in some cockeyed way, still loved each other deeply. He was the man who danced me across the living room floor in my pajamas while the stereo played the love theme from Beauty and the Beast. He was the man who climbed into bed with my dying aunt when she said she wanted to rest her head on his belly. He was the man who gave me his silly mosquito net hat when we were hiking, when I’d forgotten to bring mine. He was the man who never read a word of one of my books, no matter how much I begged. He was the man who would not listen to me talk about my work, no matter how much that meant to me. He was the man who got shoe polish all over our new white couch and refused to put a cover on it or take off his shoes. I remember crying on my hands and knees as I tried to wash the shoe polish out, and every stroke of the sponge made it worse. Fifteen years of this and I was still stuck. So, I’ll tell you what finally helped me decide to leave. I was writing a 346-page book called, How to Stay Lovers for Life. It was designed like a manual, filled with 1,000 tried-and-true tips to improve your marriage. I tried every one on my husband but none were true for me. Approaching him at different times of the day. Listening better. Showing more empathy. Using humor. Waiting. Medication. Individual counseling. Marriage counseling. Nothing made a dent in our estrangement. Since I was too old for a baby, I even got a save-the-marriage-dog, and then I got another dog just in case. I thought raising a “family” together might help. But I was wrong. Meanwhile, I was counseling my patients with the principles from my book, and they were thriving–leaving therapy to go on with their lives. They kept getting better while my marriage kept getting worse. I felt like a fraud, and that feeling was making me depressed. When I finished my book, I had to write my acknowledgments, thanking all the people who helped me along the way. I knew that leaving my husband out would be a glaring omission. What would people think? Still, I was so angry. After much deliberation I wrote, “I want to thank my husband. He knows why.” Only we knew the “why” was nothing. I was thanking him for nothing. In fifteen years of marriage, writing this book was my turning point. Specifically, it came when I placed five pages of the manuscript in his hand, as I had done so many times before and begged him to read them. Ninety minutes later I came back into the room where he was dozing–my five pages untouched. “Can’t you just read five pages and tell me what you think?” I begged him. “But I don’t know anything about books.” he replied. “But you know me…” I countered. Okay, maybe I wasn’t his dream wife. Maybe I was too busy talking to the media about relationships to actually have one of my own. At any rate, it took my exhaustive exploration of every marriage counseling trick of the trade and trying them at home to realize that nothing was going to make us work. Even then, when it was dead in the water, it took me more time to raise the courage to make a move. Three years later, I finally filed for divorce. This story wouldn’t be complete without telling you how I am now, and that’s complicated. At my best, I feel elated. I no longer feel like I’m hiding a shameful secret. I’m lighter. My pants fit better. At my worst, I feel empty. I miss the husband I never shared a meal with and rarely saw. Yet, even in my lowest moments, telling the truth is a huge relief, even if it means I’m the marriage counselor who couldn’t keep her own marriage intact. I’ve learned from my mistakes, and that knowledge lets me feel that I can survive the emptiness and make room in my life now for whatever comes next. Sharyn Wolf, LCSW is a marriage counselor and psychotherapist practicing in New York City. She is the author of the memoir, Love Shrinks: A Memoir of a Marriage Counselor’s Divorce which is being published on May 3rd by Soho Press. She has appeared on hundreds of television and radio shows including eight appearances on Oprah. She lives in New York City.

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